butthurt

it's always like this in this place. it's so cold. sometimes i'm happy but mostly i'm hurt. idk whats up with this place. it's supposed to be called as a happy place but nothing's making me happy. is it because i wanted to be different? i know im capable of doing something else. something not the usual shit. i don't want to be like them, that is the plain truth. they want me to be the perfect child but irdk, i' cant play as ifs. i wonder when will they accept the truth that i'm fine playing with their rules. i'm fucking 20 years old but they can't even trust me. it's as if im gonna do the same mistakes they did before. :/ 

xo, readysetdrool.